Friday, 31 December 2010

Adieu 2010 et Bienvenue 2011

And ye, who have met with Adversity's blast,
And been bow'd to the earth by its fury;
To whom the Twelve Months, that have recently pass'd
Were as harsh as a prejudiced jury -
Still, fill to the Future! and join in our chime,
The regrets of remembrance to cozen,
And having obtained a New Trial of Time,
Shout in hopes of a kindlier dozen.
~Thomas Hood

Yes, these past twelve months have been anything but kind to me. I am sincerely hoping and silently praying that the next stretch of time is better. In all respects.

Drop the last year into the silent limbo of the past.  Let it go, for it was imperfect, and thank God that it can go.  ~Brooks Atkinson

One fortunate thing that we as humans can do, is to change. We are not bound to reacting like animals under the yoke of instinct, destined to relentlessly repeating behaviours in response to given stimuli. Following blindly a set of fixed action patterns that are both unlearned and inherited. We don't have to, we can choose to think and respond differently. And we don't have to wait for Evolution to cause the adaptations, we can just decide, right now, to live, think and act differently.
 So, I guess I'm one up on woodlice.

A happy New Year! Grant that I
May bring no tear to any eye
When this New Year in time shall end
Let it be said I've played the friend,
Have lived and loved and labored here,
And made of it a happy year.
~Edgar Guest

I've decided upon just one New Year's Resolution. Just the one because I want to focus and try my hardest to achieve it.
I resolve to think before I speak. To carefully consider what I am about to say before I open my mouth to speak. To filter my words through kindness, sympathy, consideration and respect. To consider my audience and how they are likely to perceive my expression of self. Thereby, to do no harm to anyone.

Goodbye 2010. You've been happy, deceitful, joyous, frustrating, unkind, wistful, damn difficult and full of regrets, shame, tears and broken promises. You stole from me one of the things which I held most dear and for that I will ever despise you. So I frankly have to admit I don't mind seeing the back of you.

I can only offer to the future and the present that I am a work in progress, that I am honestly trying to become a better person and I hope that forgiveness for past transgressions will one day be found.

All I can now say, all that I can now add to what has been said before is this:
'I'm truly sorry to have hurt you, please accept my apology.'
And now what I must do is to stand back, let go, be patient and hope for the best.

Then like a wave upon the shore, it was gone....


English Rider said...

A fresh New Year, full of potential, to you and yours.

Lee said...

Thank you. Very best wishes for 2011.

The Pliers said...


I'm glad that mean old 2010 has up and foutu le camp! Yippee!

I love your wonderful quotes and wish you the best with your one resolution for the new year. It should pay off in spades and save you some grief. I'll be checking in this year to see how it goes. I might just try it myself, if you don't mind sharing.

Happy Healthy New Year, Kitty!

Kitty said...

English Rider: I wish to you the same, a New Year full of both potentials and potentials realised.

Lee: Thank you as well and Welcome! May your eggs ever be sunny-side up. :)

Pliers: I'm so glad L'Hexigone has you now. I love sharing, please feel free! I'm done with grief, it's seriously become far too boring to be in floods of tears all day. Besides, it does nothing for my complexion nor appearance, all that salt water.
As for spades, yes! I have a small garden space now, so I shall be planting a plethora of seeds come warmer weather! Oh... how I have missed having a garden!

Metropolitan Mum said...

THERE YOU ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had an error message in my feed reader and couldn't find your blog anymore. Glad to know you are still here.
Happy New Year! xx

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